I have to admit, I have gotten so caught up in this kid making his arrival in the world that I have been off my game. Unorganized, tired and definitely in a lull. Today we are currently at 40 weeks + 4days and I am impatient to say the least!
I have been meaning to do a post about how our nursery has turned out! My husband was amazingly supportive when I mentioned that I wanted to focus my intentions on this room as a creative outlet, and a way to express my energy throughout this process. I couldn’t be more thankful that he encouraged me to take it and run! I did so much research, maxed out my patience with Pinterest and tried to find inspiration in every country we have visited recently. —>
“You have your fathers face. That is all I could think as you were handed to me. Tears were streaming down my face as if I had never experienced so much love in one moment. All at once I was surrounded by your energy. Your presence. Figures moved swiftly yet, quietly around me, but I couldn’t see them clearly in my periphery. My attention was solely focused on you. —>
The pervasive aching of my hips woke me early this morning. You were there to greet me in our Tuscan sun soft room with your little movements. Cocooned in your fathers arms I lay paralyzed with love. For someone who was certain that pregnancy wasn’t for her, and the thought of having something move around in her belly would feel awful, I cannot help but smile because I know already, that I will miss the feeling. I am sometimes overwhelmed by the connection I have with you. You ground me. Your impressive strength is soothing to me as you wiggle and stretch. Not much longer and the world is yours to do with what you wish, to move freely in its space.
To say I am a perfectionist is an understatement. For whatever reason, I have always put a lot of pressure on myself to perform. Dance monkey, dance! Not always the healthiest approach to things, but it motivated me to complete whatever the task at hand was. There is a downside to this approach as well. One that I am discovering more and more, is holding me back more than motivating me.
As I reflect on my pregnancy so far, it is interesting to note, —>